exam...

THE DREADFUL VIEW OF

SHIQS'S STUDY DESK DURING EXAM WEEK

doesn't look that bad..

(some of you might think)

wait..

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see?

I am so unorganized.

(=.="")

i want, but i don't want.

mind, heart, soul, brain ...

NEVER once in MY life have these four elements in me EVER agreed with each other.

That explains why I NEVER made any rasional conclusion and/or decision for almost 20 years now.

whatever I did or about to do will certainly results in

(a) confusion

(b) a lot of drama

(c) depression.

(d) end up eating like a pig because I don't know what else to do.

YAYYY ME!

even NOW, I have NO idea what I am crapping about.

oh, I better shut up now.

countdown

Time.

Please Don't Move So Fast.

I need you

( a WHOLE LOT OF YOU).

To make sure I have sufficient Knowledge before I enter the ..

Exam Hall a.k.a

The Dungeon of Misery

or

The Chamber of Brain Juicer.

hardcore emo

lately, these things are happening to ShiQs

most of the time I just can't sleep.

(for unknown reasons)

by the time I fell asleep its already near subuh

and I'll end up waking up 2 hours after prayer.

I've been hugging "monkey" insanely

If he can talk, he'll probably ask me to just shoot him instead

I don;t like being all moody for no reason.

I think I miss someone too much.

~sigh~

silent prayer

please be safe wherever You are.

I heart you, always.

beginning?

YES.

To the end of unknown mysteries and super weird possibilities. worse come to worst I would choose the later. ( for some reasons I can't mention here )

*the flabbergasting-ly over exaggerated statement above is due to the "so called study week" that has begun yesterday.


AnyOne with extra study energy/aura, kindly spread some to me please.

IN NEED OF ENERGY TO STuDY!

vertigo

as lousy friend as I am.. I dozed off yesterday night although I constantly reminded myself that I am supposed to wake up and go for online date with Chira the Pink Princess.

( I'm really very terribly sorry sayang)

I couldn't find the energy to roll outta bed!

I have not been able to sleep for quite a long period of time. They were more like series of short naps rather than sleep. And this phenomena has caused me to be cranky and weird (sometimes for no reason)

just like yesterday in the test hall. I was smiling when I walked in (happily humming some music). when the GA ordered people to sit in some unworldly type of sitting orders which I think THEY THEMSELVES were the only people who see the logic in doing so (people can still copy if they want to because UTP STUDENTS ARE VERY WELL TRAINED IN COPYING THEIR FRIENDS ,FYI!)
so, coming back to me, when he started to nag about the "UNORDERNESS" of my sitting, I go WARGH! WATEVER!!!! (slams my stuff on another chair which is also half BROKEN!)

so anyway, I finally managed to get a GoooooooD night sleep yesterday (9 FULL HOURS)

WOW!

however, the dreams were weird and that somehow has caused me to wake up this morning and start talking craps to my awesome room mate (she tried so hard to make feel like I m being heard by somebody)

Thank You rummie. Heart You!

Please God, Don;t let the dreams come true.

I love wild things that are happening to me right now. I want them to stay.